Ok so its now February and I have to say that my year has started out rather crapply, but I guess I never expected anything else because when ever I seem to have a couple of moments of great happiness they are always followed by more pain and sadness.
I mean I had 3 exams in January and so far I have failed 2, which ok I was kinda injuired and was unable to use my shoulder but still fails makes me feel like i didn't do much, which is a complete lie. Sometimes I feel that failing is the only thing I'm good and consistant at, meh I guess only time will be able to tell on that one.
I also believe that how I am feeling at the moment also plays an important part in the way I am viewing my life. I mean my whole family and freinds have noticed that there is something wrong with me and I know that they are right becuase I'm usually a very cheery person but for the past couple of months I don't really feel much cheer anymore and I really don't like this feeling it's just not me. I think I know the reason as to why I'm like this and I say it's not when everyone asks me because I don't want them to know the true reason behind it because it kinda goes against everything I used to stand for (funny how that always works isn't it?), also I know there is nothing anyone can do because I have to sort it out myslef, as JLS say you only get one shot, (damn did I just quote that,oh well it fits). So that is what I intend to do, the next time I get the chance, even thought I'm sure I already know the answer becuase it has always been the same answer, I have to say something so that I truely know and can than hopefully start being me again.
I guess I will have to see.
Friday, 12 February 2010
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